"she does not employ her time in making herself look more advantageously what she really is"

...but endeavours to be as much another creature as she possibly can.
-Joseph addison.

the next few days are going to be one long day. there are about a million and one other things that should be going through my mind other than my weight, but then that would make things normal.
i hate apologizing, but this summer, for all its downfalls and upsets, granted me 2 new good friends.

i got in a fight with one of them last week over something stupid, and when i actually think of it, i do not think i was all that angry with her, but more so with the situation.

we kissed and made up, for lack of a better explanation and then sat at our favorite...haha..i mean only Chinese restaurant in nowhere, USA and enjoyed steamed dumplings. i had 4 and 2 camels. ooops.

its raining and dark outside, and the boy ive been pinning over for the past few days hasn't responded to my apology email. its probably for the best though because i think hearing bad news is more often than not, worse than thinking bad news.

i wish i was done with finals. i have about a million books i want to read and a thousand shops i want to visit, oh , and zero money to buy anything.

i bought myself the largest diet tea and about 5 lollipops. im hoping in addition to my adderrall it carries me through a total of 3 papers, 2 works cited, and about 4 class responses and reflections...all within the next 24 hours.


procrastination will be my demise.



that is if food doesnt get me first. im becoming an overfed whale. hoped on the scale after the shower..131. ehhh.

i want to be this tiny, in nicely torn black skinnies for the fall...i suppose i will literally need to become another creature to get there